Thursday, February 4, 2010

My Guest Blog....

So I have talked about it for a little bit now (ok teased is more like it) but here is the link to my first ever guest blog. It is for the leadership training I went through and if you have been reading along at all you know I mention this training quite a bit. It is very literally the best thing that I ever did and gave me the tools that helped me change my life.

It's odd timing to be rethinking anf reliving that experience now when I am on the brink of breaking through another wall.

The conclusion to the story in the guest blog is- I failed again. I stopped living the lessons I learned and gained back 40 pounds of what I have lost. So now I stand before you (and mostly myself) and I am looking in the mirror and asking myself....what choices are you going to make today?

It only clicked last week that I have falledn back into some self destructive patterns. I have been punishing myself and sabatoging myself for not living up to a standard I had set for myself. I am not able to forgive myself for some of the choices I have made in the past.

I am working on it....I need to find a way to forgive myself. I need another moment like I had a Rapport to remind me how powerful I can be. Hopefully I can find it somewhere within myself.

So I come back to you all, on bended knees with my heart laid out before you and once again ask to be filled up with your love and energy and support. Help me on my journey cuz it's not over yet and I am not done fighting.

I need you, I need your help.

I am not alone.....

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You are not alone sweetie...I may not be there for you physically but I am always with you in spirit!!! Love ya....JULIE